I had a sleepless night and I feel like hell. Actually, I look like a diasater for awhile. Poor complexion, dark circles, pale and dull face. I guess my physical appearance cant ever be in such
a worse state.

I was thinking last night, about my life ever since the breakup. I can't face the reliaty. Actually, I have been avoiding it forever. I believe in fairytales that everybody knows it's fiction. I guess I can blame it on Disney, who brainwash me since I am six. My favourite is Beauty and the Beast. But, how can life be a fairytale. Well, there's Enchanted but for god sake it's a movie, which all guys hate. Haha. It's a chick flick movie.

Another problem of me. I wanna be a winner. Everyone loves and wanna be a winner. But, how many succeded? Besides, who can win forever? Donald Trump falls. What happened to the Apprentice? Isn't he the guy who knows all about business? Look at Bill Gates. He got sued for monopolise the IT market.

I have never accomplished anything in my life. I'm 23 and growing older every second and somehow have nothing to be proud of yet. This is not I had pictured myself to be. With greater ambitous comes greater fall. Not exactly false. I hope I can find my road and destiny during this holiday. But my priority goes to finding and loving myself, which I have no idea how to start. Bless me.