Was going to post yesterday, but feel at feel lost.

So anyway on Thursday, Mr ZM came over to my house. We had a long chat and I'm really glad that we had one. We came to a resolve at alot of matters. I feel the understand between us grow. It really true that building a relationship is difficult. I agree. At times, it really tiring. There always this other person you have to sort of take care at the back of my mind.

But of course there is always 2 sides to everything, including relationship. There's pros & cons and there's also different roles. In my opinion, the pros should always outwit the cons. If not, this means there is sure some amiss in your relationship. I feel the most important in one is happiness. Sad to say, my relationship previously is not a two-sided happy one, BUT I'm proud to say NOW its a happy one.

So, its really my bless to come across Mr ZM. I'm really sorry that I am always the taker, but I cant help to enjoy this privileges. ^o^

Been not doing much recently. Just slacking & slacking. I had finished reading a fanfic, The Summer House. Its really a complex story, with lots of hidden meaning and emotions.

Apart from that erm....being trying to solve my connection problem. FINALLY, got the disc from the technician. BUT, its still doesnt wory or rather I dont know how its work. Hai~

Met up with P, C, C's fren (sorry I really cant remember her name) & Mrs Shim yesterday first. We went to nydc and chatted for a long time. Lots of goosips~ Hoho...
Went to Clinic later. It was kinda fun in my point of view. Afterall, it is my first time experience going clubbing with Mrs Shim & YL. We had some really SICK drink. I think vodka mix with juice or coke. After that we have a few other free drinks, like dont know what pop and lime. Its slightly better. The environment is nice, with the BIG chandelier and nice sofa cushion seats. BUT, the place is VERY SMOKY. Its make me choke on my own breathe. I cant really breathe and the eyes are growing VERY watery. Haha. We went to the dance floor. My first time and so do Mrs Shim & YL. Basically, we are just shaking. Goofying around. Its was hilarious. We had all sort of moves. Jogging style, sian sway, trying to be high dance, raise your hands kind, shake your ass.....

We had a few drinks, but its not high. After that went to Mac to eat. Yummy. I was really hungry at that moment. Then, Mrs Shim came over to my house. We were damn tried lo~ Stayed up till 6.15am. Haha. Watched some DBSK videos, read some magazines & surf the net.

Think thats all for now. Hungry again...haha


Oh ya before I forget~ I guess once again I pass off as loud, siao, 38, ah lian in other people's eyes. Man~ why does my first impression always become like this. On the other hand, J has comments like shes pretty....Honestly.....-________-

This post is going to be very violent, hostile and pissed. Please dont go on if you have a weak heart.

I am on mc for 2 days and this time I am going to use it for good. Rest and rest and rest.

I hate Singtel. Their standard has drop vastly in my opinion. Just finished writing a 1.5 pg long of complain letter to them. I really cant stand it any longer. The stupid MIO plan left with a poor phone line that doesnt stop buzzing and with lots of echoes and NO internet connection for my deskstop. This means no downloding. I have been missing out from lots of things. It fu*king stupid. AND I'm stuck using my sister laptop, which is not user friendly at all and she only has PATHETIC programmes.

I dont know and dont care if the stupid complain letter works. It just has too or not I will write in till it works. I went through sooooooo many hassel and ended up with what. NOTHING and even minus off my connection. Urgggggggg.......................So people I strongly suggest you all DONT ever think of applying the MIO plan. Its ruin your life. Like mine now.

Just called my bf and TRIED to complain to him. He fu*king dont care. AS USUAL. I dont care if he is in ns or he is busy or what. He is always like this. Minding his own business and dont give me a damn. I know he read my blog. SO HE BETTER THIS PART AND TAKE NOTE!!!! All I need is a listening ear and he cant even be one for 5 minutes? Whatever~

To make my sour mood even more sour, I found out that I have freckles around my face. AND it will spread, darker and be fu*king obvious. Great. The only cure? Buy a $200 anti-freckles shit which is only pathetic 60ml OR buy a $35 anti-freckles shit which is 3ml OR just fu*king dont care your face and let it spread and get darker. Its not like I have much choice and seriously I am fu*king broke if I brought it. I cant just let it be right. I am afterall the Queen of the vain. I swear I am going to live on grass and tree barks for my remaining days. Isn't this just sound fascinating.
Anyway schedule my facial tomorrow. Since I have to get it done, better get it done quick and try to get over it.

Since this morning received lots of phone call and sms. My boss called and asked me about work. Duhz...make me freaking sian and I cant recalled the things she is asking me. So my revenage is to absent myself from work tomorrow too. Then my bf asked me how am I. Told him I'm on mc and he LAUGH. I think he is mad. His gf is sick and he laugh. Physco. AND then I have to sms the stupid internet guy to check if he is free to meet up. He asked me to go over to Toa Payoh or Bishan. He must think I'm freaking eng lo. NB...

THEN UniSIM called me for an interview. LAU...Why isnt it RMIT? Totally sian. Need to apply for leave. Dont even know how I should prepare myself. Its an informal interview, so I guess I should just go with my guts ba. Dont think there is anything much I can do also.

So, up till now I am so freaking busy. Havent even sleep and rest. Been doing this and that. My mother also keeps questioning me. Why you alway sick? Why you want to buy the $2oo product? So you think your face is more important than your health? Can you just stop buying? So hows the internet thing coming up? The phone still got problem? Faster go complain!! Why you write the complain letter so long and slow?

My mother is just FAN. Honestly. I retorted back her and she thinks I'm being disrespectful. When I havent even YELL. Wah Kao. She's really testing my patient. Feel like banging myself into a wall.

Er......I feel bad!!!! Been croacking since yesterday. Everybody is shock by my deep voice AND its continue today. How great is that! Duhz....Was thinking I could sing the song "Choosey Lover" Theres this part where JJ and Mickey (I suspect) or Junsu (saw him doing it at the live show) said those sexy lines like "Choose me baby uh~" and "Sexy lady uh~". Haha...I can do it...

Meeting Mrs Shim later this evening. She's really a bitch man~ Called her in the morning and she just said: "Oh...I mix up my schedule. Knock off at 6.30pm today. You entertain yourself ba." Can you believe it. I know there really nothing much she can do, BUT at least sound abit modest or sorry or whatever ma~ Urggggggg..Going to kill her on Friday. SHE'S DEAD!!!! Wow, guess I'm going to be very busy on Friday~

To kill list:

1) YL
2) Cynthia
3) Mrs Shim

Hahaha....Cant wait!!!

Yesterday, had a long chat with my student till very late -__________- and forgotten the time and imagine with my voice. I taught him to study smartly. Its not advisable of course, BUT really bo bian. Suddenly, I feel smart ^o^ Although honestly my 'O' is not those "passing with flying colour". My student is really funny. Suddenly asked me: "What is manipulation to you?". It just remind me of my art days. Asking people what is reflection. Really duhz~~~ Doing the stupid mind map thingy till I wanna pull out all my hair.

Went to brought a necklace yesterday. Crazy implusive act again. AND I show it to my bf, with a "I fu*king dont care I'm broke or what, I'm stress!!!! I need to shop look". So, it works!!!!! He kept quiet, but I think he is still abit buay song and also he is too tired to care. I also dont know I'm stressing over what. But well who say life is not stress. But, it ok. I have come up planS once again and IT WILL BE SOLVE!!!!

Slept at 12am yesterday. I also dont know what up with me. Haha....I'm just so caught with my the variety show, mvS and videos.

I'm really piss that my computer connection is still NOT WORKING> I cant update my blog, cant dl my stuffs, cant read my fanfics etc. Urgggggggg

Today is gonna be a tired day as well. Have tuition until 9.30pm, for the sake to meet up Mrs Shim tml. We been heading to Novena Square..Haha..Its our first there together. Wonder what "bao" can find. I saw afew of interesting shops and there yummy yogurt also. There also tcc...hehe~

Have been doing some research for the Taiwan trip. Found lots of nice shops selling EXPENSIVE stuffs (to me). But the stuffs are really gorgeous. Impossible to miss it. My friend, C, also found out this Jie Lun shop. Duhz....ASk me to check it out. Have like 0.00000001% chance of bumping into Jie Lun ba.

I wonder how much $$ I need to set aside for shopping. Abit confuse le. Hai....There seem to be soooooo many things to get AND there lots of presents to get also. T_T

Yawn...Tird....BUSY weekend AGAIN....I miss those days where I can slack in my bed. Just nuan and nuan and nuan.

My computer is still not ok yet...NOW I can on my computer with the imagine loading, BUT the internet access just dont bug. Ma de. I swer I am going to lodge a complain. It is just poor service I am receiving till now.

Anyway saw an auntie yesterday. Shes wearing a Bitch is my middle name tee. Haha...Its so ridiculous. when she doesnt looks like one. I wonder does she know the meaning.

The Taiwan trip is also giving me a headache. Lots od things need to go through, check through, discuss through......Mrs Shim & I are having different thought. Duhz....I'm trying my best to act all cool and emotionless. BUT, believe me I am going to crack SOON. I just hope I dont scream my head off at her. It sure will be a scene....Haha~

Yesterday, went to Bugis..Brought 2 nail stickers...It kinda a rush act. But well I cant help it...the nails just simply look fancsinating hehe...ok gonna post up pics if I am don withit...Guess I really need to buy a camera~

OK its been awhile since I post NORMALLY.....was wondering am I able to upload pics here. I hope so.....I think so.

Currently listening to zhuai shu tian shi. It really a sweet and emo song~ I love it.

This week is equally boring as last week. Nothing much to do on work. Basically most of time I'm just surfing the net, reading fan fic, check out some da dong pics (hoho), chatting on msn, going to forums, setting up the blog and listening to music. OK, I know all of you are gonna say good life. BUT it is really BORING!!!! Guess I need to spice up my life....

Anyway last week went shopping with Mrs Shim and I saw this knee length socks, which is soooooo gorgeous and cute that I just HAVE TO GET IT!!! So after pending awhile on how to match it. I wear it today. Overall, I'm satisfy with the look. It come across as cute and act jap to me. I hope I look younger....haha....always kinna say I look like 26-27. Fu*k right.

Anyway instantly I have become the topic of the morning. Although I feel abit flushed, BUT it die down pretty fast too. For me, I prefer being different. Uqiue or even weird. I dont like being common. Just another average person in this world. Guess I'm a bit mental. Haha.

Its just like you live once. You have to try EVERYTHING, in a way or another. Maybe deep in my heart, I love the attention too. I'm really not sure, but I feel comfortable and its just very ME. Talking about this, just remind of the Fahrenhite's song, wo men yong wo men de young. Its talking about being different. Simliar to my opinion. Hehe...


Even my bf also said me at times. Why cant you just dress more normal. You dont have to be this outrageous blah blah blah. Its really make me mad. I can change my temper, change my habit, change my character. Whatever... But ONLY if these changes are beneficial to both of us and is for my own good. (I hope you are reading and UNDERSTAND.) Dressing doesnt affect us in any ways. People stare or look at me, but that all. Nothing much. Erm......I dont know, even my parents and sister can accept it. So, it isnt that bad ba~~


Hehe so what I'm trying to say to zm is that, this is ME. Just accept it ba~ ^o^

Gosh I cant believe myself...I'm totally into blogging!!!

Trying to change this, trying to change that. AND when its don't work, I will try to explore. See what went wrong. Haha...Its fun really and now I wanna try photoshop. So I could upload tons of pictures in.

Hai....BUT I'm feeling really POOR...I found out a nice camera and laptop that I would like to get. Its impoosible. I'm too tight. I guess next month is going to be a long...

This is the first time I am trying to deal with computer. Ususally I gave up within 5 mins.

I have no passion for computer. Its squarey, dull, boring and theres lots of numbers and alphabates that go on and on. Java they call it. But I just dont get it.

So, I'm really proud of myself to be able to produce this blog. Although I know theres nothing much to it, BUT I did put in my most effort in computer this time. Keke...

I hope you guys love the layout. Its pink. My favourite color. And its jap, I'm kind of a jap freak. Most of all the song. Isn't it NICE!!!! Its step by step by my idol, DBSK.....