Going to have the house to myself on Sat onward. It's literally going to be @ home as my sis will be working on mon onward. I'm hoping she is not planning to stay @ home on both sat & sun.

Found lots of good steal @ e library on wed. "Confessions of a Shopaholic", "Remember me", "Size 14 is ok" (i think this is e title) & some random book which seem nice enough.

I'm planning to get some biscuits from marks & spencer. They have the best biscuits I have yet tasted so far. Going to make myself sandwiches for most of the day as breakfast or lunch to save some doughnuts & $. Tip I learnt from the shopaholic. Hee...

So far, this holiday has been quite filled up with endless dramas, books, games & gg out. I'm, enjoying my single life, but not yet to give up completely. Mayb not so soon.

Oh ya...caught lots & lots of movies. Think I'm maddening...

"Angel & Demons", "Alien VS Monsters", "Drag me to hell". "Taking of the Pelham 123" & "State of play". All in this month. I still wanna catch "Ghost of the ex-gfs". Anyway, think this is the title. You kw what I mean rt.

Havent been running lately, down w sore throat & flu. The pills r making me drowsy, hence not fit for run. Need to do something abt it tml. Btw, I painted my nails black. I think I'm so cool.

******Need need need to do up resume

This Monday officially starts my slacking and rejuvenating period. I am getting more and more restless with each passing day and it's kind of scary. Sleeping alot, nuaning, doing "0" housechores where my mother is compaining, surfing, playing farm house, watching dramas and reading. How tiring can all these be? I am feeling the weight on me increasing with each day. Why? Must be the old age.

I packed my warerode yesterday. It's really a tiring and troublesome. Once again, I'm amaze by the amount of clothes I have and the amount of clothing I have only wore afew times. I really do have alot of different kinds of outfits. Haha....My wild thoughts of different styles. My warerobe is bursting once again and I had given away those that I dont wear often, but there is still a truckload more. Erm...

Anyway, I was having a fight with my mum just now. I know I really need to control my temper and laziness, but its so difficult. She is talking about the same routine stuffs again. About my dad, her life and how we are not helping her to ease the load. I dont know what she expects but I know for sure she doesnt know the pressure she is giving me. The expectations are seriously overwhelming. Hai...Not that I dont understand why she is acting this way but afterall I do need some space for myself. She just fails to understand this point everytime. Mothers.

Anyway, the getting to know myself is not processing. My brain power is at 1% constantly. Cant think and brainstorm much. Hopefully, I will recover soon.

Ok....finally I've got my rest. I think I need it somehow or rather I do deserve a break after my roller coaster ride since the start of 2009. Life is really super slack. The contrast as compare during the exam and sick period is really heaven and hell. It is afterall difficult to strike a balance. Well say.

Erm....my ife is kind of like a routine. Wake up late, watch drama, hunt for jobs, read books, watch drama and sleep. Occasionally, there are tuition and some household chores to do. Mostly, I just try to avoid them. Haha....OMG. It's look so horrible when I typed it out and reading it myself. But, I need to confine myself at home. Been spending alot on food and movies....Eeewww.

I had a sleepless night and I feel like hell. Actually, I look like a diasater for awhile. Poor complexion, dark circles, pale and dull face. I guess my physical appearance cant ever be in such
a worse state.

I was thinking last night, about my life ever since the breakup. I can't face the reliaty. Actually, I have been avoiding it forever. I believe in fairytales that everybody knows it's fiction. I guess I can blame it on Disney, who brainwash me since I am six. My favourite is Beauty and the Beast. But, how can life be a fairytale. Well, there's Enchanted but for god sake it's a movie, which all guys hate. Haha. It's a chick flick movie.

Another problem of me. I wanna be a winner. Everyone loves and wanna be a winner. But, how many succeded? Besides, who can win forever? Donald Trump falls. What happened to the Apprentice? Isn't he the guy who knows all about business? Look at Bill Gates. He got sued for monopolise the IT market.

I have never accomplished anything in my life. I'm 23 and growing older every second and somehow have nothing to be proud of yet. This is not I had pictured myself to be. With greater ambitous comes greater fall. Not exactly false. I hope I can find my road and destiny during this holiday. But my priority goes to finding and loving myself, which I have no idea how to start. Bless me.

Well someone has been complaining that my blog is serious and dull. I guess its all part of growing old. Haha...I should done up a regular entry today.

Erm... ever since the horrible SQ paper, I've been really busy with my students' exams. I couldnt remember CA papers can be this stressful. I guess this is the different between a good school and neighbourhood school.

Well beside keeping up with tuitions, I have been working my ass off to hunt for a job. The economy is really bad, bad, BAD. I dont remember having such a hard time looking for a job, besides my first job due to the zero experience. Anyway, some of my frens also either cant find a job or are having a hard time coping with their current jobs. I hope recession will passed soon. Its really a tough year for me and many others.

Ok, I think I sound pathetic until now. But, its not that bad. I did went out a couples of time. Haha...Don't worry. I'm still having a semi-life. Went to Tampines One a few times are are horrified by the crowd and aunties queuing to get into UNIQLO likes it is selling some limited edition stuffs. Seriously, its just cotton and basics at an unresonable pricing. Guess, its quite the typical singaporeans act huh.

I had catch afew movies too. Wolverine, Star Trek and soon Angel & Demon. Wolverine is really over-rated for me. Star Trek is cool. Quite an anticipating show. U guys should watch.

Anyway, finally get to meet up with YL after all these time. Have a nice time laughing my stomach out (almost). And ya....maaaa I will consider your pep talk seriously. Haha... I know you are thinking I'm bullshitting as usual.

Conclusion of the day: I will try to be simple-minded. Think less and focus more.

Life should be much more than this. I alway believe in this. Having the best, be successful and have empathy of money. This is a worry-free ideal life for me ever since I understand humanity. I saw an article in Cleo. Will you rather choose to be successful or happiness? It's such a tough question. Maybe because I'm older now. Maybe because I'm tired of the fast-pace life. Maybe because in the first place I'm not cut out to be successful. I chose happiness.

I hope I can do the right things in future. Or rather don't regret in decisions and actions I had done.

Announment:

I am offically single. Calling for bf material guys......


After relatively a month, I finally know what I am dwelling. I love the past him. But, its over. People change with time. It's ok.

I am welcoming my new chapter of life. Even if it is a boring one that consisting of school, tuitions, dramas and friends. Life goes on and maybe something exciting will happen. Who knows.


I am still looking out for diary. Apparantly those I found are fugly. Any recommendations?